I have my own (high-speed, high-cost) internet now! Yay! I also spent the first three days of it, including today, mucking around with the SMP Miiiiiinecraft server. I’ve got two days off of work this week (hell froze over!) so I’ll update more frequently … maybe.

Finally, at the beginning of next month my bestest bestie best friend Sarah, and her husband, are moving close by! With plans of moving closer, even! I’m more than excited.

I leave you with … *drumroll* MINECRAFT SERVER STATS:

Craftbukkit snapshot – Build 766 (May 9, 2011 8:11:06 PM)

PLUGINS (updated May 12, 2011)

*outdated plugin

Permissions – 2.7.3 (Phoenix) – Build 766

Essentials – 2.2 – Build 766

Minecart Mania CORE – v1.2.2 – Build 766

• Stations – 1.2.2
• Sign Commands –1.2.2
• Admin Controls – 1.2.2
• Chest Control – 1.2.2
• Automations – 1.2.2

iConomy – 5.0 (Eruanna) – Build 766

Dependencies :

• MySQL  – http://mirror.nexua.org/Dependencies/mysql-connector-java-bin.jar
• H2 – http://mirror.nexua.org/Dependencies/h2.jar

*War – 1.4.2 (Slim) – Build 740

*KitPlugin – v1.2 – Build 740

*MCDocs – v9 – Build 740

MultiVerse -  1.6.4 – Build 766

*Ancient Gates – v1.0.2 – Build 733

*Tent This – 2.2.0 – Build 670

Citizens – 1.0.8b – Build 766

MoveCraft – 0.6.8 – Build 766

NOT YET DOWNLOADED (outdated/lacking support)

Monster Hunt

POSSIBLE DOWNLOADS

Painter

Elevator

*outdated plugins may not necessarily be useless, just outdated. 

Until then …

KITTEH!

Craftbukkit latest snapshot – Build #137

PLUGINS (updated 01/25/2011)

Permissions – 1.9 (Handler) Handles user/admin permissions in a yaml file.

• iChat – v1.2 Adds colored prefix/suffix

General – 2.0 (Mafia) General commands

Essentials – b97 More general commands

MyWarp – v1.8.2 Warp options (unavailable unless admin)

MyHome – v1.7.2 Home warp creation/customization options.

Minecart Mania CORE – v0.72 alpha Admin only

• Autocart – 0.5 alpha
• Stations – 0.13 alpha
• Sign Commands – 0.11 alpha

Interesting Places – v1.2 Displays the name of the area as you enter/exit. Adds /where command

iConomy – 2.2b (Aime) Virtual currency system

• SimpleShop – v1.1 A basic shop that relies on iConomy

Dependencies

• mysql-connector-java-bin.jar
• sqlitejdbc-v056.jar

TreeHugger – v0.6c Allows for apple and tree block drops when leaf decay is active.

BukkitMon – v0.3.0 (Venusaur) Admin/event only.

War – v0.5 (Rommel) Admin/event only.

Redeem Codes – v1.2 Admin/event only.

• May conflict with iConomy (if true: http://forums.bukkit.org/attachments/redeemcodes-iconomy-zip.194/) UPDATE: iConomy build UNSTABLE as of 1.25.2011

Hidden Doors – v1.0.0 Admin only.

• Not yet supported by Permissions plugin.

NOT YET INSTALLED

MoveCraft – v0.6.2 (pending Permissions support)

NOT YET DOWNLOADED (outdated/lacking support)

SpawnControl – v0.2.2

Stats + Achievements – v0.1

Skills – v0.8

Minecraft Tetris – v0.1

Day of the Living Dead

I can’t just smile and sit there, thinkin’ of better days

Cause I got no dreams to hear me out and all my words have run away

So, now I’m speechless, killing time with ripened peaches, until I’m done

Cause they’re easy to bruise

As I kick ‘em to the curb with rented shoes, nothing to lose

Except myself

Got my mem’ries all lined up to knock ‘em down off their high shelf

And when it’s empty I find no relief

What’s left is painted wood and it’s not helping me to find my sleep

With my mind deep I toss and I turn

Until I turn to the bottle and use your name as a cistern

Your words are spoken but they tumble out to blind ears

On to my shoulders where I’ll wear their weight for many years

And when I drop ‘em they lay for none to see

You pick ‘em up, recycle lines, and throw ‘em back in front of me

Leaving me helpless I wander like a fool

Dangle that lurid lure then reel me in to play with you

I’m back to drinking, toss a shot and toss my hair

Mouthing “I love you”, too afraid to let the feelings air

And you pretend, too,

About as well as I do

Enough to keep me in the dark while you’re choosing who to lie to

Mark it by the words of a Hellogoodbye song,
Years of feeling queasy are replaced by a loud throng.
Beating in my head I know my heart will keep in time,
As we’re swaying and displaying open minds to soggy sunshine.

Been so locked up, caged, afraid to fly;
You give me wings, these feathered things,
As sincere as our goodbyes.
Hello, so nice to be you again.

As we all know by now, I’m terrible at keeping up with … anything really: I started my 365 project on St. Patty’s Day and probably have a week’s worth of photos, and I began this blog with the intention of weekly updates and find myself working on entry number three. Regardless, I’m posting now:

It’s been a busy month (April/May) for me, but it’s the type of busy that makes you feel accomplished. Recently I was invited to be the lyricist/vocalist for a band called Kamboombox, and I couldn’t be more stoked, amped, psyched, and excited! Currently the band consists of Paul (To Everyone), Paul’s brother John, and Damien (No Talent Show, Broke By Sunday, Fighting Jamesons); a talented mesh of phenomenal artists – I am so lucky. While being in a band with Damien is an enthralling subject all it’s own, the main reason I’m ultra-hyper over Kaboombox is the style of music we play: video games meet J-pop. Music is my world, and poppy music, well, it makes me happy. I can’t help it! We’re even talking about going all out with costumes/clothing to match our style. Hopefully I’ll have show dates for all of my lovely followers soon; I expect to see each and every one of you at my gigs! Or else!

Now, back to Damien. Heh, for those who know me closely you’ve been hearing that name an awful lot lately, and I do apologize,  but I can’t seem to help myself. Damien, Damien, Damien! There, maybe it’s out of my system… okay, not likely. To fully understand y’all need as much backstory as I can give without A) boring you to tears, and B) pissing off my bassist: It’s been ten years since he and I first met at a gig at Alpha Music, when Shannon and I used to follow his band around as proper (high school) groupies tend to do; I have been enamored, infatuated, obsessed, whatever! with the boy ever since.

Don’t get me wrong, I enjoy all musicians equally, but there’s something I can’t define about Damien that has me so ga-ga over his goofy ass. Years ago we went out, but not really. It reminds me of the line in Grease, a bit, “We didn’t go together, we just went together,” because he nor I ever gave name to what we had being perfectly content to ride it out until we got bored. No one got bored. Feelings evolved. Shit got weird. I can only speak for myself, but I believe that Damien is like-minded: I have horrible commitment issues. “I stay committed like one foot in, one foot out.” So I think both of us got a little wary about caring for one another. The only difference is as I got older I wanted to care for Damien, he didn’t. Today I’m 100% alright with that, but there’s a part of my heart that will always be head over heels for that man.

With that in mind, you can start to fathom how I must have felt getting a phone call from him saying that not only did he want me to sing for him, but he wanted me IN HIS BAND. Not only that, but he “loves my voice”. So, yeah, I’ve been tiptoeing around cloud nine for weeks now, careful not to fall through, but now I think it’s time to just jump on in! I know, for a fact, that a majority of my love for Damien stems from how he makes me feel, and if I could accomplish these feelings without him I’m willing to bet a lot of the love would fade quickly, hah.

Wednesday, Cinco de Mayo, Damien and I spent the day running around, writing music, and then partying it up at a bar called Manhattan’s while his cover band jammed and, for the first time in a long time, I felt like I was me again. Back when we were “together” it was something every week like that – parties at night, adventures during the day, and fun fun fun, and I didn’t realize how much I missed that until I experienced it again. Part of the appeal of being a musician is that same aspect: getting out, having fun, making friends, partying it up and Damien brings the best of that out no matter where he is. I’ve missed that! And I’m going to get it back. You just watch.

Title – Artist:

Hollywood Hills – The Academy Is…

My Hair Looks Fierce – Amanda Lepore

Catalyst – Anna Nalick

One More Minute – Authority Zero

Los Angeles Is Burning – Bad Religion

Name Of The Game – The Crystal Method

Stay (Wasting Time) – Dave Matthews Band

California Uber Alles – Dead Kennedys

Clouds Over California – DevilDriver

LA Woman – The Doors

Open Road Song – Eve 6

Sunset Strip Bitch – Eve 6

Jet Plane – Eve 6

Like A California King – Everclear

Bowl for Two – The Expendables

Party At Ground Zero – Fishbone

Handlebars – Flobots

Mexican Wine – Fountains of Wayne

60 Revolutions – Gogol Bordello

Gypsy Part of Town – Gogol Bordello

Country Basket – Green Day vs. Nelly

Going to California – Led Zeppelin

Hands Down Gandhi – The Legion of Doom

On and On – Mickey Avalon

Aqualung – Mocheeba

Fear and Love – Morcheeba

I’m So L.A. – MYNX

No Taylor, No Scar – Norwegian Recycling

Straight Outta Compton – NWA

Stop and Stare – One Republic

California – Phantom Planet

Californication – Red Hot Chili Peppers

Danny California – Red Hot Chili Peppers

Sayonara Senorita – Reel Big Fish

I Can’t Surf – Reverend Horton Heat

Goin’ Back to Cali – Sevendust

Snoops Upside Your Head – Snoop Dogg/Dre

Reptilia – The Strokes

Garden Grove – Sublime

April 29, 1992 – Sublime

Caress Me Down – Sublime

Doin’ Time – Sublime

Floating Vibes – Surfer Blood

Punkrocker – Teddybears

Cystal Baller – Third Eye Blind

Can’t Get Away – Third Eye Blind

I Come From The Water – The Toadies

Into The Great Wide Open – Tom Petty

Free Falling – Tom Petty

Ænema – Tool

California Love – Tupac

Wolf Like Me – TV On The Radio

Shutterbug – Veruca Salt

Wild Wild West – Will Smith

Maps – Yeah Yeah Yeahs

Roundabout – Yes

Amber – 311

Beautiful Disaster – 311

The list is ever evolving and I’m always open to suggestions (right up until the day of my flight), so feel free to recommend more music. Currently the playlist only covers four hours worth of the journey; I’ll need at least another four to make it last the entirety of the airport adventures.

Let The Good Times Droll…

Taking into consideration that I try to remain open-minded at all times TMITuesday (and FFF) are often difficult days for me; I find that the majority of “TMI”s aren’t really all that shocking, grotesque, or obscure, but maybe that’s because of how free I am. Either way, I’ve decided that in order to make a truly TMI-filled post I would have to chuck all masks and filters out of the window, so here goes:

For years I did not like sex. Sure, it felt nice and all that, but I wasn’t enthusiastic about it and my sexual appetite would wane quickly in relationships. A big part of that “sexual anxiety” had to do with the major lack of self-confidence I used to have, some of it was due to being raised in a prudish manner, and the rest was simply that the sex was no good! In a way it was a good thing seeing as I got to re-learn my sexual self and that was fun, I’m totally an addict now, but for a while it was more than frustrating to feel as if I were unsatisfiable. Very discouraging.

Now that that’s a thing of the past, though, I am fully aware of my sexual identity, often defined by it, and I don’t mind. I happen to be a very flirtatious person naturally, and the more comfortable I am around a person the higher the level of flirtation. Of course I have respectful limits and I’m careful not to make awkward a situation, but I find that more and more that my people really are my people. I have yet to offend a one, as far as I know, and it’s such a welcome change from the usual crowd of easily-upset, politically correct morons.

Right, time for the juicy stuffs; the point is that I know what I like, and what I like is some kinky shit: bondage is a huge turn on. Tie me up, blindfold me, handcuff me, whatever. Momma like. I also happen to be a huge fan of pain, within reason, candle wax is always fun. Fingernails, biting, hairpulling … all welcome in the heat of the moment. Noises turn me on far more than seeing a sex act would, muted porn does nothing for me, but just porn sounds can get my heart racing! I also think I make pretty sexy sounds.

It’s a given to say that I like rough sex, but I do! Pin me down, shove me around, rip off the skirt rough sex. I have yet to find a partner willing to go as far as I’d enjoy, and I understand for I am a small lady and I could see worrying about hurting me (which is always the excuse), but there’s a safeword for a reason, right?

Following those lines would be my enjoyment of mock-rape and role-playing! Again, I’ve yet to find someone .. ahem, willing and able enough, but previous attempts have been pleasurable. Role-playing, while slightly silly, ends up being very fun; pretending to be someone else is something I’m remarkably good at, and I rock many different looks to prove it. I own wigs, costumes, and all manner of accessories that would make role-playing extra fun. It seems that in order to expand my repertoire I’ll need to search for a better partner!

In Conclusion…

I think I’ll end there today – I have Freak Flag Friday to consider, and many TMITuesdays to come.

Let it all hang out, people!